So I have not posted in forever! My summer babysitting job is getting a pay cut, but I rather take a pay cut than work less. Ya know something to do with my summer. I take the drive test for the 3rd time on Saturday (I MUST PASS!) Summer is almost here and I have two days of hard core testing. I trying to diet, note trying. I think I lost 10 pounds but gained it back :( I want to get down to 130 lbs but means losing 30+ lbs. An old friend just apologized for ignoring me the last couple of years and that makes me feel great. I need to clean my room. but ya know... I want to get a job at the end of the summer and get a car. I am looking for a small car 4 door, cd, ac, and hopefully under 2k-3k. I like a job at yokes, cause it is close and it is nice place to work. Happy Summer Ya'll :D

I have high blood pressure and can't have salt or caffeine. I went to the doctor on Wednesday and she says I have to have all these test, and they gave me three shots (not for high blood pressure) I'm get my blood drawn tomorrow (yuck!). I can't eat after twelve to get my blood drawn- so tomorrow I will be hungry and cranky. My mom might buy me breakfast though! But tomorrow is the very last day of school, today was the last day of actual work. I lost my ipod and someone stole it, I AM SAD! I don't know my math grade and I'm really nervous... So I walk w/ Michael and Alanna today in the state park... yeah... yeah If I ever felt like a third wheel- it would be now. But it is okay because I love Alanna and Michael is my friend, it is a way so they can be together besides at school. You make sacrifices for the people you love.

AWWWWW! I love the sun, it is so nice to see it again! Ali finally got me my boys like girls cd but my mom took it away because i'm still failing math, and they won't let me play tennis too. But. my mom will talk to my dad about getting it back, so yeah! by the way i hate math and i'm 4% from a D, UGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG!

I had my second tennis match today and we lost again! Oh well, it is still really fun!

http://www.mtv.com/overdrive/?id=1585325&vid=224215
THAT is a really cool video where a ton of people talk
So I road on a motorcycle for the first time and was scary at first BUT really fun!

so I got a leather jacket, purple and white helmet, and leather pants for my dad's motorcycle, I also get hiking boots but we still have to buy them. So leather supposedly makes you look sexy, I look like an idiot try to look sexy, and the funny thing is I'm not trying to look sexy! lol...

I love spring! I just out riding my bike and it was so nice! I loved being out in the sun and breathing in all the fresh air! It was like flying, the feeling of freedom, it was so nice. granted it was a little cold, but it was still worth it.

So I have been waiting all week for my cds to come! So it is exciting! I got fall out boy, kt tunstall, pink, lifehouse, and james blunt { but they sent the wrong james blunt which is very sad :( } THEN my parents went out today and I went with them. At target they had the Sara Bareilles for $10, which was very good ^-^ so I got that cd too! I got a copy of To Kill a Mocking Bird, very good too! TO top it all off, my parents bought me tennis racket for tennis (duh!) at school! VERY GOOD DAY!

The book comes out on August 2nd, very exciting. The cover art is released on May 31 and more about the book.
The movie is on at December 12, Wikipedia has more on the cast.http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Twilight_%28novel%29#Film
I am very excited I can't wait!

So we have no school for the next to days! Plus we had no school on Monday, Tuesday, and Today (Wednesday)so BOYA! no school for 5 whole days! So I have been okay with the whole grandpa thing. It feels right that he is longer in pain and how life continues go on, I don't want it to stop either. There is just this hole in my chest that I don't know what to do with, but I'll be alright, I think. Little steps at a time. Christy is till pretty distant. Grandma moved back into her apartment, and is getting involve in a knit croche group. Everyone has returned home, so the house is quite. The one bad thing about snow days there is really nothing to do, except play in the snow.

So if you did not know, my grandpa died on Monday morning @ 7:15. My Auntie Bev was with him. The funeral is closed, on Thursday, so it is just for us family, but the reception is not, it on Friday It is at our house. I went to school for half a day today, and maybe a full day on Wednesday. But no school on Thursday and Friday. Christy did not go to school today, but where encouraging her to go tomorrow. Again thank you for all your prayers and supports!

My grandfather is now worse, instead of weeks or months, it is days. I did not go to church this Sunday and will probably not go to school. I'm listening to sea of love, it is so comforting.

Sooooo much has happened since last time I posted. My grandparents now live with us. I had to move back up stairs and share a bathroom with Christy. This all has happened over the course of three days. My grandfather is terminal, means he his on his death bed. He can die in a couple weeks to a few months. Everyone is real supportive, Ali and Kelsey came over yesterday and helped me move up. Everyone is also worried how Christy and I are going to take Grandpa dieing here. I am more worried on how Christy will take it. She has been pretty distant and moody. There is times when I feel all chocked up, but don't worry about me, I'll be fine. Please pray for my mom, and her parents, and Christy too. Oh yeah, my mom has to take a leave of absence, because my grandpa need 24 hour care. SO money is going to really tight soon. The worst part is it has all happened so fast. I feel like I'm in the middle of a race car track. Today I went shopping with my dad, just to get out of the house. I got high tops with sheep on them, I really like them! AND M&Ms, they solve everything, at least for a little while. Oh and Padfoot, I finally read twilight ,new moon, and eclipes. I REALLY liked them, thus the avatar.

hey padfoot, can you you email me?????? or just reply to this entry

Online Santa Tracker
This is really cool, it updates every 5 minutes. We had the family on my mom's side come over. We are going to the midnight service. We are watching some Christmas special videos. Christy is sleeping in my room, cause tis tradition.
MERRY CHRISTMAS TO ALL AND TO ALL A GOOD NIGHT!!! :3

let me explain, Torin is Alanna's crush or was. HE started dating another girl right behind Alanna's back, which makes him a Jerk or more like beyond.

I thought I was gonna die on the bus today, Torin was sitting right in front HE STINKING HUGGED ME! I will talking later when I'm not so fumed.

11 days till Christmas break, 16 days till Christmas Eve, and 17 days till Christmas! :3 I can't wait!

So my birthday was GREAT! I got a camera! It is sooooo cool! We went to the Onion for dinner (YUM!):3

SO there is the guy who is a Sophomore, and my friend says he likes me WHICH is completely obvious, cause he flirts with me ALL the time. BUT I don't know if I like him, he nice, makes me smile, and is funny. IN the end it does not matter, I can't have a boyfriend. It would be so much easier if he told me that he liked me, so than I could decide. I don't want to say I like him first, cause than he might have changed his mind or my friend miss understood. THAT would be EMBARRASSING and very awkward (I sit next to him)THEN I feel like I 'm not ready for a boyfriend or even a guy who likes me. Wait I take that back I'M NOT READY! So I have decided that boys are way to complicated when it comes to love. Thank you for ready this, and I'm impressed that you could read this to the end. ;D